My sweet little Thalia. I love you more then words can ever express. YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE! always have been always will be! I couldnt breath without you, you are my air. I love you baby and Happy BIG 4th birthday.
I was writing someone very close to my heart tonight and when i was done i felt the need to copy what i wrote and add it in here.
Hopefully soon i will be able to have a much better web page. until then,this will have to do.please excuse alltypos,my fingers go faster then my brain,or is it vice versa?lol
anyways here it is:
of course i am in tears right now.remembering what it tookto get pregnant with thalia,and even what it took to get preg. with the babies.
man, i am in tears just rememberingthe pain. over 48 monthsof trying for thalia. she is one of a million miracle babies.
anyways i thought you would like this link, because it is sweet.plus has a prett song on it:)
funny how i was listening to sarah mclachlan today while the babies played next to me,all 4 of the kids ended up in my arms.i cried for them all. i cried because thalia was so wanted,so needed,she is my everything.
crying for olivia because if i would have done what my fert.dr (RE)wanted me to do and PUSHED for me to do, i would have aborted her. i look at her almost daily and think of this, how would i have ever lived without her?
cried for elijah, he is the only boy and makes me sohappy.so sweet,sokind,so good. was always so sweet to me in the womb, never kicking,always just so sweet.
cried for nadia, my little nadia. if i would have had her 50 years ago she would have died for sure.if it wasnt for modern tech.i would have lost her within the 1st 48 hours.i watched her get that damn tube shoved down her throat, it was hard, hard to know that there was nothing i could do to save her and that she was dieing.
oh man, now i am really crying.
odd that sarah mclachlan is someone who i dont ever get a chance to listen to and i got to hear her 2 times today!of course both times i end up balling!
THANK YOU
EVERYONE
For those of you who do not know, my family has hit ROCK BOTTOM when it comes to money. We are RICH in LOVE and BLESSEd with our children, but that does NOT put food on the table.
For those of you who do not even know me BUT have sent MONEY, DIAPERS, CLOTHES, I thank YOU with EVERYTHING in me. I do not feel we deserve such kindess, I appreciate it, but just dont think we deserve it.
a BIG thank you to all my TRIPLET CONNECTION friends. I just pray one day I will be so kind and giving as you have!
Please keep us in your prayers, as yes this helps for temporary, but we need long term goals. We realize NO BODY can do this but US. It is OUR responsibilty to be GREAT parents and people. We are trying to find my dh a new job as we speak. Please pray that a door will open for him. One that will keep him home. Right now he works out of town A LOT and that prevents me from being able to work (no sitters!) His job has decent pay, but not enough to buy groceries. We have not bought groceries since the middle of December! we have been DENIED foodstamps AND medaid. Please pray that they will approve us (we have reapplied and waiting on the answer!). Please pray that i will be strong enough (mentally) to GO to co0llegge and get a career. I amlooking into being a nurse or ultra sound tech.
PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM TO FIND A JOB.
He is a good man and is having a hard time with the fact that he is not able to support his family any longer.
THANKS AGAIN EVERYONE, you are all 2 kind!!!
so many of you request my email addy:
bnwc@msn.com
I just am amazed every day.
I LOVE YOU OLIVIA BROOKE MICHELLE
I LOVE YOU ELIJAH FAUSTINO
I LOVE YOU NADIA BROOKE ROSE
No words can come close to describing the Love, Joy, Happiness and Peace you give me. Thank YOU for choosing me to be your mommy! I wake up every single morning in shoch that I gave birth to 3 babies at 1 time, that I am lucky enough to be your mom. That God wanted me to raise you. You are each so very perfect. So very different and So very loving. I pray that I make you happy and that you will always let me be a part of your lives. I pray for you to have complete Joy in evrything that you do. I often think of the song I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack and she PERFECTLY writes EXCATLY what I think.
I hope
you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance,
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years
have gone.)
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years
have gone.)